A Bigger Dream

When I was little, my only aspiration was to become a mother, nothing more, nothing less. After I had kids, I realized I needed something beyond changing dirty diapers and wiping runny noses. I needed something for me. Writing became that passion, but I never realized God had a bigger dream for me, something beyond being a mother and even a writer. When my oldest was nine-months-old, I attended a group at my local church called MOPS and at the meeting, a woman gave her testimony. At that moment, I became inspired to tell my story too. Even though the thought of standing in front of a crowd made my heart quicken, I shared my idea with God, yet planting a seed. It matured and blossomed, and years later I stood in front of the same group of women and shared my story.

I planted yet another seed when I attended a charity banquet for Care Net, renamed Aspire Together Pregnancy Center. At that meeting, a woman talked about her abortion experience. It moved me deeply, and later that night I remember telling God, that one day when the time was right, I wanted to share my abortion experience too. The seed matured and blossomed, and thirteen years later the women at Aspire Together asked me to be their keynote speaker. God's dream for me, which is now mine as well had come to fruition, and I'm honored and humbled.

I planted two more seeds when I attended the MOPS Convention in Florida in 2010 and when Women of Faith came to Boston. I don't know if it is God's will for me to speak at these venues but who knows, crazier things have happened, like becoming pregnant with my third child instead of going on the tropical vacation I prayed for. I have learned to expect the unexpected. Over the years, I have learned to stand back and watch in awe as God blows my expectations away. In Genesis 37: 19 Joseph's brothers declare "Here comes the dreamer." And you may call me that too, that's okay, I don't mind, because I serve the God who dreamed the universe into existence.